B.A. Paris > Quotes

“We go downstairs and in the hall, he takes my coat from the cupboard and holds it open while I slip my arms into it. In the drive outside, he holds the car door for me and waits until I’m in. As he closes it behind me, I can’t help thinking it’s a shame he’s such a sadistic bastard, because he has wonderful manners.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“I don't suppose I could have a whiskey instead of the wine, could I?"
"Whiskey?"
"Yes"
"I didn't know you drank whiskey."
"And I didn't know you were a psychopath. Just bring me a whiskey”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“I can’t help thinking it’s a shame he’s such a sadistic bastard, because he has wonderful manners.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“I cry even harder, thinking of how it could have been, of how I thought it would be. For the first time, I want to give up, to die, because suddenly everything is too much and there is no solution in sight.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“I look around at everybody laughing and joking together and struggle to understand my life has become a living hell that nobody present could even begin to imagine”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“What colour was Millie’s room, Grace?”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“When I look at him I feel dismayed as I always do at how normal he looks, because surely there should be something--pointed ears or a pair of horns--to warn people of his evilness.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“The door opens and he stands in the doorway, my handsome, psychopathic husband.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“Pretending to be broken would be much harder, simply because it was in my nature to fight back.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“I like you Jack, but don’t like Jorj Koony”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“Do I detect a renewal of your fighting spirit? I'm so glad. To tell the truth, I've been getting quite bored. Bring it on, Grace--I'm waiting for you.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“Fear,’ he whispered. ‘There is nothing quite like it. I love how it looks, I love how it feels, I love how it smells. And I especially love the sound of it.’ I felt his tongue on my cheek. ‘I even love the taste of it”
― B A Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“He prides himself on uttering only the truth, and enjoys that I am the only one who understands the meaning behind his words.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“Do you know what Henry David Thoreau believed? ‘Happiness is like a butterfly; the more you chase it, the more it will elude you. But if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.”
― B.A. Paris, The Therapist

“Had it all been a facade, had he covered his true self with a cloak of geniality and good humour to impress me?”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“But the truth is, we never really know what goes on, on the other side of the fence, behind those closed doors. Instead of looking over the fence, we should really be keeping our eyes fixed firmly on our side and cherishing the grass that we have—bald patches and all—just a little bit more.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“Time is an oddity when it comes to memories...”
― B.A. Paris, Bring Me Back

“Fear is the best deterrent of all.”
― B.A. Paris

“I never really remember doing any of it, which should worry me more than it does because it means the pills are playing havoc with my already failing memory. If I were sensible, I would halve the dose. But if I were more sensible I wouldn't have needed the pills in the first place. Maybe if I ate a little more the pills wouldn't affect me as much but it seems that I've lost my appetite as well as my mind.”
― B.A. Paris, The Breakdown

“I wait for the images to fade, listening for the sound of somebody's presence, a movement from one of the rooms, a floorboard creaking upstairs. But there is only silence, and the dust of hopes never fulfilled, taunting me with what could have been, if only I'd acted differently.”
― B.A. Paris, Bring Me Back

“Happiness is like a butterfly; the more you chase it, the more it will elude you. But if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.”
― B.A. Paris, The Therapist

“Red,’ says Jack. ‘It’s her favourite colour.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“Without routine, there is no risk of me becoming institutionalised and unable to think for myself. And I must think for myself.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“I can barely get the word out. ‘Red,’ I tell her, my voice breaking. ‘Millie’s room was red.’ ‘That’s what I thought,’ she says softly.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“What colour was Millie's room Grace?'

'Red, Millie's room was red.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“it’s a shame he’s such a sadistic bastard, because he has wonderful manners.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“The airport or the hospital? Your husband or your sister?’ He paused a moment. ‘Me, or Millie?”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“Hello, darling, it’s me.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors

“I think time has no meaning when it comes to grief.”
― B.A. Paris, The Therapist

“The enormity of what she’s doing, of what she’s offering to do, hits me and I feel myself starting to shake. ‘Thank you,’ I whisper.”
― B.A. Paris, Behind Closed Doors